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Yeah, today was also. Not great. Didn't get out of bed until almost dark again, etc. etc. etc. I did at least go and get food, though, so that's something. I think I'll put soup on tomorrow morning, have that for dinner. Yes. I probably should've bought some more veggies to hide in it, but I forgot until now, whoops!
Sibling will be back over tomorrow, which is at least an external motivation to get the fuck out of bed and do stuff!
Fam, I have been so wiped out lately that I feel like I have a Victorian wasting disease. All I can really do is just sit on the couch and read or work on my virtual farm. On the other hand this has given me plenty of time to make up Fake Victorian Wasting Diseases:
It was in fact NOT better today. It was actually worse. /o\
But! I did FINALLY take a fucking shower! It was at like 10:30pm, but I did finally take one!
Not sure exactly WHY my brain is bouncing off basic fucking hygiene so hard at the moment - probably something to do with it being cold, but it's not just that - but it really, really is. :/
But at least I've taken it now, so I can go food shopping tomorrow!!! >: The most important thing! (Here is a thing I have learned today: green beans don't really go in instant noodles. Texture is not quite right. Still, a vegetable is a vegetable...)
The news comes ahead of the Season 1 finale on July 11. Based on “All Systems Red,” the first novella in Martha Wells’ series “The Murderbot Diaries,” the season stars Alexander Skarsgård as “a self-hacking security construct who is horrified by human emotion yet drawn to its vulnerable clients” that “must hide its free will and complete a dangerous assignment when all it really wants is to be left alone to watch futuristic soap operas and figure out its place in the universe,” per the official logline ... .
I did... absolutely nothing on my to-do list today. I didn't even get out of bed until like. 5? It was almost dark, I know that much. SIGH.
I did at least apply for some jobs, which I've gotten into the habit of and so didn't put on my to-do list, but still. Fuck executive dysfunction, what a pain. Not surprised though, this is generally how it goes. :/
I HAVE to go shopping tomorrow though, I'm out of uh. Most foods. So hopefully that'll give me a kick in the ass to do other things, too. Hopefully!!!
I did do some knitting though, almost done with the switch cover! Just gotta bind off and then probably block it. Never had to block anything before, so that'll be an adventure! (Mama blocked the shawl I gave her. I was gonna do it, but she had it washed and blocked out before I could even say I was gonna! XD;;;) First thing will, of course, be finding the mats! But I do know where pins are, so that's something...
Vigilantes is a spin-off story set before the events of Boku no Hero Academia which focuses on vigilantes in a world where being a pro hero is a viable career path. It expands the worldbuilding of BnHA beyond pro heroes and gives more historical information about how society developed after the appearance of Quirks. (Someone in YouTube comments said that Vigilantes is actually more academic about hero society history than BnHA which is more "My Hero Military Camp" sometimes. Absolutely wild and yet weirdly accurate.)
We're introduced to a new set of characters—college student Haimawari Kouichi, "freelance idol" Pop☆Step, and eccentric bruiser Knuckleduster—but lots of pro heroes from the main series appear in supporting roles as well.
( Cut for length and spoilers (for the anime and some of the manga). )
Random stuff:
Top Secret!, by the creators of Airplane!, is a parody of WWII movies and "Elvis" movies, in which the Elvis-like American protagonist, Nick Rivers, stumbles into being a hero that helps the resistance against East German fascist regime.
(Feel free to go watch Top Secret! and then return to this post.)
One of my and ebaths's favorite scenes in Top Secret! is one in which Nick is captured and tortured by the regime. In the middle of his torture, Nick passes out and has a nightmare that he's "back in (high) school" and missed all of his finals. Then he wakes up to the real life torture, realizes it was a dream, and says, "Thank god!"
This great little sequence clocks in at under a minute in length!
It's funny because of the delivery (I love the out-of-it performance of the dream classmate), the familiarity of the dream (I couldn't find any statistics on how many people have this dream, but it's incredibly common even after graduation, and there are multiple articles on the subject; here's one I found just now), and the absurdity of Nick preferring getting beaten over the mundane and relatively harmless scenario in which he missed his exams.
I think part of the humor also comes from how true it rings. It's absurd that Nick would prefer getting beaten, but in some way also very real. To me the scene, though comedic, is a fantastic illustration of how human experiences are all determined by how we see them. This is often brought up in the context of how we can change our views, and I think less often in the context of how aging changes our world and therefore the way we perceive events-- the latter of which is particularly relevant to Nick Rivers's high school nightmare.
It's easy to forget how little you know as a child; for example, kids often need to have concepts like death explicitly laid out for them since it's not something they'd pick up on their own, whereas as an adult the existence of death (at least in its most abstract form) is second nature. With knowledge so limited, your world is easily defined by the adults around you. They might introduce you to religious concepts or the idea of something like Santa Claus, and though later you may reconsider your beliefs, as a kid typically these concepts are easily absorbed into your idea of reality.
Ideas around school fall into this category. If you're given the sense that you "must" get certain grades, or complete certain milestones (like taking final exams) or else your life is over, then that'll become your reality. Later on, after graduation, you'll likely realize that failing or missing exams don't end your life, even if they cause a lot of stress and extra headaches. In retrospect, the stress of needing to pass your chemistry final may seem almost trivial. Even if the event of "missing your chemistry final" doesn't change, your experience of the event (in terms of your emotions leading up to and following the event) can change if your perception of the world changes.
In the movie, Nick Rivers is a suave, unnaturally "chill" guy, ready to roll with it as he suddenly has to start risking his life. You can imagine that he's seen enough at this point to realize that whatever happens, he can probably make it work, and if not... he's enjoyed his life enough to not freak out too much over the end of it all. But as a teenager, he wouldn't have had acquired this life experience; it seems he was likely relatively sheltered (also funny) and like so many of us, had his brain trapped in the world (perhaps unintentionally) constructed by his parents and teachers-- a world where he had no way of seeing beyond the apparent horizon of doom that was missing his final exams.
So while being imprisoned and physically tortured is definitely worse than missing your final exams, it makes sense for Nick to find torture more tolerable than the dream-- because in the dream, he's not only living out the scenario of missing the exams, he's also re-living the mental state of being in high school. He's been reverted to the him that has no way of knowing that school isn't life or death, and has no sense of how much control he really has over his own life or how many opportunities still lay ahead.
Put another way, the high school nightmare represents not a single situation (such as being in school or missing exams) but a different world (mentally living in a reality in which you have no agency and you perceive that any misstep will be catastrophic). Though the "torture" situation of reality is less desirable than the "missed exam" situation of the nightmare, perception is what defines experience, and Nick naturally welcomes back the world of reality (in which he is an adult that sees near-infinite options for his future) compared to the world of the nightmare (previously described).