nearly 2 weeks ago, i started my first job at a children’s clothing store (even though i don’t need it cause im sooo fucking rich the son of the owner of the store was ma bestieee/jk. well we never talked to each other but we did study together). is a simple part time one (and i dont have to stay much time there either, as legally the working hours for minors are at maximum 6), and so far, it has been pretty ok.

as im a clothing seller, i was afraid that i would SERIOUSLY struggle at it, half bc of da tism, half bc i do struggle a bit at talking to people. also bc the store, while not big, has a very weird organizing system; for starters, there’s various…uhhh…let’s say clusters of shelves around the left and right side of the store, on one or two clusters (usually composed of 2 or 3 shelves, one at the middle of the wall and another one near the top) there is the clothes of a collection, and luckily they’re organized by a common set of sizes, which at least makes things less confusing for sizes from 10 to 16, why do I say this? cause the sizes are color coded, so ig the intended reason was so that it could be easy to know where to go if a client is looking for a certain size, which would be the case IF SOME SIZES DIDNT HAVE THE SAME COLOR. or even different ones!!! (IM LOOKING AT YOU SIZE 36 MONTHS. why tf is it colored as both size 0-3 months and 18 months 😭), and to make things worse, various items are placed on a certain shelve and a singular item is organized by SIZE, which for a beiginner like me 2 weeks ago (despite the fact spent my first 3 days organizing clothing racks like crazy, which should’ve left me with a fair knowledge about which color belonged to what size), makes the store look like a mess lol. luckily u get used to it. regarding the social part, i have a super cutesy secret weapon down my sleeve…mimicking my peers :D. no but seriously is all you need to do, and smile all the time, and make an effort to do eye contact (though i personally don’t do that one a lot as 1. i seriously don’t know if whether i look at people in the eye or not like i feel like im normal and 2. focusing on that ALL THE TIME is surprisingly tiring, specially as i interact with a lot of people, so eh whatever), which has resulted pretty well. same thing with my peers, ive simply used my super cool techniques to make a good impression i learned from me dad :D (im sure his were more accessible to me cause im 99% sure he’s autistic, just a very high masking one), which are useful, probably cause half of my co workers are women in their 40s, and im more natural with younger coworkers, which is not saying much as the youngest aside from me is 19 😭. all of them have been nice to me nonetheless, even though im sure one of the reasons why they are is cause they see me as a little girl who needs guidance and yk all that bullshit, but as long as I don’t get berated is fine ;).

most of the time, i either organize big amounts of clothing racks or i attend clients using my super cool mimicking qualities (thougih i still allow myself to not make eye contact, stim, and swear whenever any inconvenience happens), usually clients are nice, chill, utterly indifferent, or stereotypical tolimense women in their 50s with shitty eyeliner (generally a more corny and bitchy version of the indifferent client). clearly, plenty of families attend the shop, which clearly makes everything more messier than necessary, specially as my boss is very insistent of keeping an eye of each client as someone might steal clothes (im 100% sure it happened to her before) so you often end up doing 10 laps around the store, specially if it’s busy, though luckily the store isn’t busy aaallll of the fucking time so there’s usually time to rest. though i fear it’ll get worse (pray for me there’s a madrugón tomorrow 🙏), but luckily we haven’t had any incidents. surprinsingly, getting used to such a frenetic (for my standards, this is my first job be nice to me) rhythm of work wasnt as hard as I thought, is overwhelming, but not impossible to manage. in fact, the whole process of selling clothes ends up feeling repetitive, and logically speaking, must be somewhat redundant, as clients usually seek things we don’t have (full fledged oufits, expecting the pieces of it to be sold as a whole, which doesn’t happen unless you are on the baby discount section), and the we offer up half of the store in hopes of convincing them, which has obviously varied results, and we always offer up the same clothing cause the factory distributor can’t bother itself to bring formal clothing that everyone is looking for so their children can look good on christmas and new years but anywayyyy. sales are doing good ig, and there’s a higher amount of people than i expected, given the fact i work at a mall that ain’t a part of the Big 3 malls of the city, but hey, more money!!! also the mall has a shop of gothic clothes and 3 shops of geeky merchandise, which is pretty cool, once i get my wage i should get out of there asap so I don’t end up spending my well-earned money on figurines.

in conclusion, im happy this was my first job hehe, cause at the end of the day, the people there respect me and the job isn’t impossibly hard for a beiginner. only downside is that it didn’t fix my speech quirks as my family and i expected, much less my tendency to count with my fingers to slow down, but anyway, IM the one making money, and im pretty good at it, so whoever judges me should die 🤑🙏/hj.

also look forward to a massive media log these week as im having an experimental film marathon tonight!!! i kind of got in the mood of it by watching bee movie last night and im pretty hyped up. anyway it includes a hiroyuki imashi film, why wouldn’t I be hyped:)